Peak +15

Still no new cycle yet. Today is cycle day 29, peak +15. I guess the trigger shot was good for my luteal phase!

So far I've had no spotting, other than one pinkish drop (literally a drop, like a tiny dot) yesterday afternoon. That probably means it's on its way, but just one drop and then, 24 hours later, still nothing? And before you start thinking it was implantation bleeding, I'll remind you it was peak +14. A little late for that, unless the trigger didn't work and the ultrasound was wrong and I didn't actually ovulate until three to four days after we think I did (which would, actually, coincide with my peak-type mucus...NOT that I think this actually happened).

My temp also was playing games with me this morning and rose two tenths of a point. It had been at 98.1 since ovulation and today it was 98.3. Seeing that was enough to make me take a another test, but it was, again, negative.

I still don't feel like it's coming (my bbs are still sore and I haven't crashed yet), but I guess all bets are off this cycle since a lot has been different. I'll probably have no warning.

Speaking of not crashing yet, I've been handling the negative tests extremely well. I have just felt really uplifted by God's grace lately (and even if it is the progesterone, I still credit God with that!).

I called Tep.eyac to see if I could keep my scheduled cycle day one appointment tomorrow, despite the fact that I may not have actually begun a new cycle at that point and they said it was fine. Good. It's not like we can't figure out the plan for the next cycle even if this one hasn't ended.

I had the appointment time wrong though, and it forced me to cancel - for the second time now - an appointment with our priest to talk about finding me a spiritual director. Seriously, I have been trying to meet with him for like six weeks now. Things keep getting in the way - or I mess up the time - and I have to keep putting it off and he only meets with people on Friday afternoons. I am trying to remain patient and just pray that when I do meet with him, that he'll be able to recommend someone who will be able to take me on. I have to believe this is one prayer God will slowly but surely answer. Why would He deny me spiritual direction?

So we'll head up north tomorrow morning, I'll ask for something other than Tamoxifen, I'll ask for another trigger shot, and I'll ask about post-peak hcg as well. Anything else I should ask?