Cycle day 29

It's 12 days post peak. Again, I feel kind of like crap. This morning I awoke, not with leg pain, but with neck pain. And crazy dreams for like the fifth day in a row. Is this some delayed effect of Tamoxifen to have crazy, disturbing dreams?

Here's a new concept: Maybe it's just me. Maybe a good portion of what happens with me has nothing to do with my cycle. Wouldn't that be funny? I mean, I seriously think everything is cycle related - nausea, back pain, bad moods, good moods. I'm just so centrally focused that I can't imagine anything happening outside of my hormonal ups and downs. Ya, I'm pretty sure everything is cycle related.

We're leaving to go to my in-laws in a few minutes and tonight will see the Sabres play the Hurricanes. It should be fun! I've been to NHL games before, and I remember it being cold. I'm just really hoping it's not. I've been freezing lately (again, I assume this is cycle related) and sitting in an ice rink sounds pretty cold. I'll make sure to dress warmly. In layers.

In adoption news...Two more families were moved to "placement in progress" on our agency's website. That is great news because now there are only ten families ahead of us on there (there could be more waiting families who aren't on the website, but they don't count in our mathematical equation because we know there are about two babies placed each month through tracking the website. That means if couples not on the website are being chosen, there are even more babies per month). Seeing those couples move down from the list makes it even more real. And they weren't chosen in order, so that makes it even more real. If the remaining couples are chosen in order and two babies are placed each month in the coming months, that means we could have a baby by August. Now, I know it might not happen like that. Once we're no longer last on the list, couples below us could be chosen first. But late summer still sounds exciting. And once we reach that point, even if we don't have a baby yet, we'll at least know that the call could come any day. I'd like to think the wait will be a lot easier then, but it might be even harder.

Well I've got to go finish getting ready to get in the car. Hopefully I'll have pictures to post tomorrow (and I'm praying for blood test results again!).