To vlog or not to vlog

So the other day, Living Advent sent me a link to this. And ever since I first saw it, I've been contemplating what I can do for it. Here is the thought process that I keep playing over in my mind:

• Time is short. It's due on July 9, so there's not much time for me to really focus the movie on anyone other than myself, since that would include travel


• So if I am doing it on myself... what could it possibly be about?


• The only thing I can come up with would be a sort of "cycle-in-the-life," and cross my fingers that something interesting happens this month


• But is that insanely boring? 


• Yes


• And is it inspirational, like the rules say it needs to be? My definition of inspirational (real, honest) might be different than the definition of the drug company sponsoring it (pregnancy, perserverence until that illusive positive test is finally reached, most likely by doing IVF)


• And, upon reading the rules closer, it sounds like they want women who have conceived after infertility, although they never come right out and say that. "Path to parenthood" is the terminology they use. Yes, we are all on a path to parenthood, so technically...

So that's what I've been thinking about, and probably driving Ryan crazy with it all. He thinks we need to just start shooting this cycle, just in case that is what we decide to do. I mean, next month it will be too late, since it's due in early July. And if I wait any longer to decide now, it will be too late for this cycle as well.

Plus, what will it hurt to document one of my cycles? I  mean, at least it would allow me to, years later, look back and feel sorry for myself!

That brings me to this - we started shooting stuff yesterday. I am going back and forth about whether it is super lame or a work in progress that we may or may not do anything with. But as I was talking to the camera about infertility, I realized that perhaps I should use some of it as a video blog here.

But then that brings me to whether posting it here would be super lame or not. Usually when I watch someone's video blog (I hate the term vlog) I tend to think it's boring. There are some who can pull it off, but mostly I think people watch because it is like watching a train wreck. 

But, at the same time, I have all this camera and editing equipment that I love to use, so why not? It'd be just like my regular posts, but instead of writing, I'm doing it in a video. Maybe I'd do it once a week... Maybe I'd incorporate video... and make it interactive so you guys would suggest what it should be about each week.

I don't know. I don't know if there is any added value in video blogging, other than it puts my equipment to use (plus you'll get to hear my voice and decide whether that's what you pictured or not!). See what you think. I'm going to post a very short clip here to give you an idea of what it's like. This one I was doing specifically for the short film (although I refer to Tamoxifen, and later saw that the rules say you can't mention any medications by name). And while it is not directed at you guys, as I was doing them, that's what it became in my head and I had to stop myself from talking directly to you!

I'm also posting this clip in particular because you get to see Sophie Belle!