Goodbye technology

I have something I want to get to, but first I just want to give you a quick update on my progesterone. I found out this morning that it rose, but only by one point (it's now - or was at 15 weeks when I was tested - 30.2). The nurse seemed to think that was good news, but I couldn't help but be thoroughly disappointed. And worse, scared. I'm continuing on the two shots a week protocol for now and will test again in two weeks.

I need to remember that a lot of women have low levels throughout and their babies are fine. I'm trying to focus on that.

In other news, it's been pretty stressful over here. And honestly, it's the first time I've been stressed since before getting Clara. It's really been a wonderful five-and-a-half months, not entirely stress free, but when things came up, I handled them. But now it seems like it's a combination of more problems arising and a greater inability to "handle" them on my part.

So that leads me to a major change that is happening tomorrow. We are getting rid of cable and internet.

Let me just say that my husband and I are majorly into watching television. We don't take this lightly and we are not embarrassed about it. And, honestly, who doesn't have the internet these days?

I have to say I was on board with the idea until the actual cancellation was made this morning (they actually go away tomorrow), which was when I suddenly found myself in tears, realizing it was really going to happen. I know that might sound dramatic to some of you, but it's just so easy to grow accustomed to both things, especially the internet. I'm worried about what may come up that I'll need it for. I'm worried I don't yet realize how hard it's going to be... as a stay-at-home mom... home all day.

And taking a laptop to a place with free wi-fi isn't an option because we don't own a laptop.

The good news is we'll still be able to get a few channels using an antenna. And I'll still have most of the internet on my phone (we're under contract, so getting rid of that wouldn't have been as easy), so I'll still be able to read blogs and check email and facebook (I know, I'll really be roughing it). But I just don't foresee me posting on a regular basis because I find it so very difficult to type on the little screen. But it's nice to know that if I have to post, I can.

I am trying to embrace this change. I'm hoping it will give me more time to focus on other, more important things (although it's not like I just hang out and watch t.v. all day as it is, and clearly I'm not posting every day!). And I do sort of feel like I am a slave to the technology sometimes; I actually get stressed when the shows start to build up on our DVR. I won't have to worry about that anymore. Although I am pretty upset about not being able to watch part three of the Real Housewives of New York reunion. I'm trying not to think about it.

So we'll see how this goes. It might take some getting used to, but I know we're doing the right thing (it's for financial reasons, in case you're wondering). And, let's be honest, it's not the end of the world. And it's not like we're going off the grid or anything! (Actually, do you think the government will flag us for this? As like ultra-conservative militia or something? Hahaha...)

We'll be fine.. And it might even be like an experiment to see how our great-grandparents used to live...minus the iPhone!!