Feeling good

Thanks for all your help, you guys! Your comments made me feel a lot better. And Andnotbysight - I have to say that yours was VERY encouraging. And not that I am putting all my stock in this cycle, but it's nice to be reminded that everything doesn't have to work perfectly in order to have the desired result.

I am doing much better today. I wasn't all that bad last night, just a little worked up. I calmed down and went to bed, albeit pretty late (I watched some autopsy show until 3 a.m.!). My animals all took care of me. Sophie slept next to me all night (when I woke up, she was shoved up against me and I could barely move!) and the cats refrained from batting me in the face with their paws. That's all I can ask for!

Today I am just trusting in God, and giving all of this worry back over to him. I need to work on not taking it back from him, though! I have a tendency to do that. I am looking at the bigger picture and figure that, worst case scenario, if something else is wrong, then it is an answer to prayer that we find out about it. Seriously, if you are praying that any other problems that may be there come to light, then you better be ready when they do.

So far today, I have seen some more mucus, 10C, and it was even a little pasty, if that's possible with that much stretch. I don't know. I've been charting for nearly three years and sometimes I still feel clueless. In my heart of hearts, I believe I have already ovulated. I know that doesn't affect my peak day at all, and that you often ovulate before peak, but I'm just saying. I decided that I am going to call my doctor tomorrow or Wednesday and tell him that I am having a difficult time determining my peak day, which I need to do in order to have my blood drawn on peak +7. Hopefully he will be able to weigh in on that.

No matter when my peak day was, I am obviously having a lot of mucus this cycle (I think today is my twelfth day of it), although very little quantity each day. And, the quality has been declining each day since my temperature spike. So, that much mucus isn't normal, but I just don't know how abnormal or problematic it may be. But that's where that trust should be kicking in! There's nothing I can do about it right now, so I will not worry.

Right now I am getting ready to drop my paperwork off at our agency. It's amazing to think that we have done our part (well, we still owe hundreds of dollars for the home study, but that isn't billed until we're approved) and now we wait. Our friends have been waiting a few months longer than us and so I know we won't get picked until after they are. And since my friend has been watching the agency's website for almost a year now, and seeing how many waiting families are moved to a "placement in progress" status each month, she estimates that we could have a baby by the summer. We will see!