Of course when everything seems to be going right, something has to come in to knock me down. I'm having a bad day and I am totally stressed and upset. Not about infertility, for once, but I am very concerned that my stress level today is only going to worsen my chances this month. So that's making me even more upset!
I swear, the devil is out to get me! Why does something always happen on important days? My little egg was probably getting all set for fertilization and then... BAM! Stress hormones were released and it was like an earthquake hit!
I'm trying to calm down. I think I'm going to go lay on the couch, watch some T.V. and just try to relax as much as possible.
Do you think one stressful morning is enough to derail me? Is there anything I can do to lessen the effects of any stress hormones that were released? (Hmmm.. how about not stressing about how much it is affecting me).
I know that it is ultimately in God's hands, but I'd like to know I did all I could as well.
Oh, and speaking of stresses - could you please pray for my mother, if you get a chance? The C-di.ff came back again (it's the fourth time now) and her doctor won't prescribe her the more intense medication that she knows she needs to get rid of it (who knew - doctors are clueless in more areas than just infertility!). She is going to an infectious disease specialist on Monday, so hopefully she will get it then, and then she will be rid of this horrible thing for good.
And how about this - my poor mom posted on a C-Di.ff message board the other day and someone on there chewed her out! Can you believe that?? It was a U.K. support message board apparently, because the U.S. one was down. She had been reading the boards for some time, and finally decided to post the other day. The person who was rude flew off the handle because my mom said she was a nurse, and this woman got in my mom's face because she is mad at all doctors and nurses for the way they've handled this health crisis (apparently people are dying of it in the U.K., making it a very emotionally-charged issue. And yes, hearing that people are dying made me more stressed out about it!). It's not my mom's fault, though. She is a school nurse, and she is suffering from it herself! I felt so bad for her. Other people came to her defense, so that was nice. I just thought I'd share that since it would be like the equivalent of one of you being mean to me on here, you know? You would never do that!
Friday, January 16, 2009
Stress
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I am so sorry you are worrying about your mom. It makes our days so much stressful worring about the ones we love and only being able to pray and encourage them. I don't have any clue how not to stress either. I think worrying about not letting myself get stressed is really wearing me out!! I don't know how to not stress. Every time I get on the phone with my mom, I get a tightening in my belly and it is STRESS. I just worry about her so much. Hope you can rest and let that little egg implant :)
ReplyDeleteFirst, sorry about your mom. [hugs] As for relieving stress...yoga or other exercise seems to help me. Sitting on the couch just seems to give me more time to mull things over & I get more stressed about whatever it is i'm thinking about. Maybe using your creative outlet of sewing will help you to de-stress. You can make me an apron. ;)
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh I am so sorry! That is horrible. Your mother has been sick forever!
ReplyDeleteBut I am thinking if you already ovulated then I don't think stress would cause an egg to not implant. You would only get a double peak if you hadn't ovulated already.
Keep your head up! Pray and meditate on the rosary? Run to God. :)
I never did understand how people get so rude and personal on those message boards. What really bothered me about the IF message boards where I post is that someone before the election posted about how they heard Obama voted against the bill to keep babies alive after a botched abortion, and she wanted to know if it was true. People reamed her like you would not believe!! One even went so far as to talk about McCain's lack of support for women's "reproductive rights." I couldn't BELIEVE I was hearing those words from someone battling IF!!! (It makes you wonder sometimes if God intends to open some eyes with this gift of infertility.)
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I feel so badly for your mom. Both about the boards and about the C.Diff. I will keep her in my prayers.
And to ease your stress level about your stress levels (lol!)- stress is more detrimental to your O when it occurs BEFORE O. You're ok, don't sweat it!
I am really sorry to hear about your mom, of course I will pray for her. No stress, keep that little egg happy :)
ReplyDeleteHow are you feeling today? Hopefully your new door has brightened your spirits! ;) Ha ha... where is that door going anyway?
ReplyDeleteOh, I was going to ask if you're going to the "Mass for Life" before the march this week? It's at the Verizon Center downtown and I HIGHLY recommend it. Last year Matt Maher played and he was so amazing. It's just so breath-taking to experience Mass with 20,000 people. Besides World Youth Day, I don't think there's anything like it! Keep in mind you have to arrive super early to get a seat. It fills up quickly.