Well, I woke up with some odd pains and I'm not sure what they're from.
I had some bad cramping while I was still in bed, and had a hard time getting up. When I finally got out of bed and started to get ready for church, it was clear that the pain was in my lower abdomen, in the middle. It was pretty bad, and got worse in waves. I had a hard time getting ready and was, of course, late. During Mass, the pain got a little better and by then I was beginning to also have some pain near my sides.
Then, once I got back home, the pain changed again, and was more like a muscular pain all throughout my abdomen. It's as if I did a ton of sit-ups yesterday, and, I can assure you, I did not!
I've had pain far worse than this, so it's not a huge deal. I'm just more curious what it is. Of course, I like when anything new happens, so I'm hoping these symptoms are a good sign. It's cycle day 22, and I probably have about a week and a half left in the two-week wait. I'm not as hungry today as I was the past few days, and I actually feel a little bloated, although I've lost a little more weight.
On a related subject, I've been considering actually having some hope this cycle, because I figure that can only help. Don't studies show that hope/laughter/less stress is proven to help people who are sick? Then I'd have to believe the same is true for those of us with infertility! And it would definitely please God, so it can't hurt (well, it can hurt us emotionally, but maybe that's a way that God wants me to die to self. I'll have to explore that more later).
I think, for me, it needs to be a conscious, calculated effort. I don't tend to let myself have hope unless I try to do it on purpose. I don't know, we'll see. It might take a few months to get there. Although, I'm also worried that my hope will decrease after each failed cycle, while, actually, the opposite should be true. I'm probably getting healthier and more "normal" all the time, so I probably have a greater chance of getting pregnant after a few months than I do now.
It'll definitely be a work in progress. For now, I'm going to rest and try not to move too much. Have a great rest of your weekend!
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Post-ovulation pain
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oooooooo.... different is good!!! Praying the Lord will strengthen your hope in HIM!! (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteThe point about hope is a good one. I decided to give up on hope this cycle (we haven't had treatment for infection yet), and guess what? The things I took for granted (like ovulating, having more normal looking cycles) have actually left along with the hope! I had ONE day of peak-mucus this cycle, and I have a feeling it was not associated with an ovulatory event. So I have no idea what's going on right now (does not seem like double peak).
ReplyDeleteI'll have to try your approach next time! I "hope" your difference of symptoms is a good sign!!
I completely understand how difficult it is to hope when you have been disappointed so many times! Right now, my hope is just to have a few healthy cycles. I keep trusting that God has his timing and He has already proven to me that He will do things His way! Fortunately, I have been seeing good changes, too. So I will rely on His grace to calm my heart! Good luck with the new changes! God will bless you, indeed!
ReplyDeleteI think we've all been in your shoes. We think this time is "the time" then we think "don't get your hopes up incase it's not 'the time". It's just part of the whole TTC process.
ReplyDeleteI'm so hoping you are pregnant though, you totally deserve it!
I read this post with so much HOPE for you! Like meredith said, different is good! So we will take it! Definately keep us posted on all of the nuances! :)
ReplyDeleteThe apron pattern I am using is Butterick 4945, I am making "D". My fabric store puts patterns on sale for 99cents! So I buy them like crazy! This is my first apron and it is fairly simple to make so far.....Time consuming, but simple. I am a RETARD when it comes to deciphering patterns for the first time! So I don't have any tips just yet! :) Let me know how it goes!
You make a great point about choosing to hope! I hope that the new symptoms indicate something positive!
ReplyDeleteI've been feeling a little hopeless these last few weeks too. I keep trying to enjoy all that I have, but I have this itch for baby number too. I want Jack to have a sibling, but I feel like it will never happen. I think my body hates me! Well, I've let it go so badly that it is going to be a long road back to somewhere I can call normal. I feel so overwhelmed by all that I need to do to start getting myself back to where a baby might be possible. You really do give me so much hope... - I'm just feeling blue lately. I just can't seem to get out of my funk - I haven't even been blogging.
ReplyDeleteWhen you first started out trying to eat right and get your PCOS in check, did you have valleys where you just wanted to call it a day and eat whatever you wanted? Sometimes I'm just tired of it all and wish it would go away.