A premonition

On March 7, I was on my way to Mass when I got a text from a friend, fellow blogger Lifehopes. I was in New York for my baby shower, which had taken place the day before.

LH: R u pregnant? I had very vivid dream u r!

Me: Haha! No! I started a new cycle right before for my shower. Not many women can say that!

She went on to say the dream seemed real to her, almost like a prophecy. She thought maybe this would be a special cycle. That maybe I would finally conceive.

It still gives me chills to recall that text exchange. After five-and-a-half years of trying to become pregnant with no luck, I conceived, out of the blue, one week later.

When we got a chance to talk in the days that followed the text (but before my positive test), she told me more about her dream. She had envisioned me calling her and telling her the news. She said that if it wasn't this cycle, then maybe it would happen in the future. She felt very strongly about it.

I thought it was pretty cool, but thanks to Clara and my sudden lack of desire to be pregnant, I didn't cling to it like I would have just a few months earlier.

Then, just a few weeks later, when I began to suspect that I might, in fact, be pregnant, I called Lifehopes before I even said anything to my husband. I already kind of knew that the scene from her dream, the one where I called her to tell her the unbelievable news, would likely be playing out soon.

And, sure enough, it did. I called her the morning of Wednesday, March 31, after I had gotten two positive tests. I never asked her if it was exactly like her dream at that moment, but I imagine it was close enough.

I haven't fully wrapped my mind around it all. What does it mean? Why was she given the premonition about, not herself, but a friend? Was God trying to tell her for a reason? Was He trying to tell me?

I believe at least part of it has to do with how much she has prayed for me. I know she has asked God countless times for me to conceive, as I have for her, and I do believe she is intrinsically connected to my struggle on a spiritual level because of this. I can't explain exactly why, but perhaps it has to do with that.

We may never know why it happened, but it doesn't matter. I absolutely love that this is part of the story.