Just some thoughts circulating in my head that I remember whenever I'm not around a computer:
I think I might have some adrenal issues. Yes, this may be on my mind because of the discussion of it yesterday at our support group meeting, and I am the first to admit that I tend to think I have whatever anyone mentions (and am prone towards hypochondria), but I really think this could be something I have. Granted, I really don't know what it is, so how I can really say that, I am not completely sure. As far as I know it has something to do with stress, and stress is something that I definitely have.
Speaking of that, stress - and the inability to deal with it in a healthy way - has always been an issue for me. And I can also add to that list anxiety, depression, panic, OCD and some of its spectrum disorders (just mentioned one above, actually), just to name a few. This can't be a coincidence. I truly believe that my predisposition towards these issues and/or these issues themselves have something to do with my infertility.
So I have decided to write down all of the different problems I have and perhaps bring them up to my doctor. There are just so many different things that could be going on with me and clearly something is not right. I can't help but wonder whether maybe I have forgotten to mention things that could potentially be helpful to a diagnosis...things I would never have thought were even pertinent to infertility. And they may not be, but you never know.
Some things that could go on that list: extreme tiredness, dizziness and seeing "green" when I stand up, abdominal pain, weird leg sensations, the feeling of a full bladder for a few days at a time, no motivation for several days at a time, trouble waking up, can't tolerate caffeine (causes insomnia, rapid heart beat), alcohol causes rapid heart beat, tmj, nausea and an aversion to basically all food at certain times. I'm sure there are more. Those things that are so normal to us that we don't even think of them right away are the best ones.
So to further seem like a hypochondriac in this post, I have another self-diagnosis for you. I'm wondering if my dizziness and light-headedness could possibly be due to hypoglycemia. I mean, I am on a very low-carb diet and I am on medication that, as far as I know, works to lower your blood sugar.
I'm weepy today, like when my eyes begin to scrunch up like they're getting ready to make tears and then my brain says to my eyes, "what the heck are you doing? We're not sad!" Funny how that happens. I know that must means something is going on hormonally.
I'm on cycle day 15, I think, and have I mentioned that I decided to forego B6 this cycle? I was in a very rebellious mood a couple weeks ago (remember this?) and decided that extreme measures weren't worth the effort anymore. Well, I am happy to report that while I've had less mucus, I have had a good amount. And today I even saw some 10KL.
Okay, this one is actually not related to my health. I need to buy a strapless bra for my sister's wedding. Anyone have a recommendation for like the best one ever created? Me and strapless bras don't get along at all (not that anyone loves them) and right now, when I try the strapless dress on bra-less, it sits super low. There's like two feet between the top of my dress and my neck, I swear! And the wide expanse of that part of my body stands out even more because I have some serious bathing suit lines. Need to work on those.
So I never sewed that dress I posted about a while back. I made one and hated it and then took it apart. I did end up making a couple skirts though, and taught myself to do zippers. And I'm not trying to imply that I am so talented that I don't need directions. Just the opposite actually. I cannot understand directions. My mind can't compute them (maybe my foggy mind has something to do with infertility too!). So I just look at zippers in my clothes and try to make mine look like them. It gets the job done.
Still haven't gotten new glasses yet and no, I'm not going to post pictures of any of the potential ones on here. I'd be the first person to want you to do it on your blog, but I'm too scared. If even one person said they didn't like a pair, I'd probably not want to get them because one of you didn't like them. Then I'd never find glasses!
Oh, and I'm looking forward to this week and a trip to D.C that I'll be posting about. Stay tuned!
I know there are other things but it's not like you're not dying to hear them anyways, and Ryan just got home so I'm getting off the computer. Have a wonderful Monday!