Thankful...

...For every single one of your unbelievably helpful, kind, generous, moving and heaven-sent comments and emails. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I think I cried every time I read one in the first few days after writing my last post and they, along with your prayers, lifted me up during a very difficult time. What you shared with me, your advice, your personal stories, your struggles... words cannot describe how much it helped.

...For my Lukie's incredible improvement this past week. I took him to the doctor last week and the pediatrician agreed with me that it was probably a dairy allergy. The doctor wanted me to try a soy formula, but I convinced him to let me continue breastfeeding and try giving up dairy first, and ever since I have he has been a different baby. He's still gassy and may have reflux, but he doesn't feed constantly and he is back to sleeping in 4-6 hour shifts at night. It's wonderful for him and me. My favorite part, besides the sleep, is seeing my baby awake and happy.

...For my family's help this past week. What a difference an extra set of hands makes. From entertaining Clara, to settling Luke down, to letting me nap, it's been a wonderful break.

...For my husband, who's been a rock during these first five weeks of having "twiblings" (my new favorite word). The poor guy is sick right now (as is Clara), so please say a prayer if you get a chance.

...For the miracle that changed my life forever, which all began (from my perspective) one year ago today. For a blogger who thought of me and became forever part of our family's story. For the many bloggers, friends, family and strangers who helped make it happen financially. And for a very special NICU nurse who gave a little three-pound baby girl the love she so desperately needed before I ever could.

...For my dearest Clara. It's hard to believe that one year ago tonight you didn't even have a name and yet now, as we cuddle in bed as I type this, you are the love of my life.

...For my sweet baby Luke, who shocked us all earlier this year. We all love you so much. And sometimes I still can't believe you're here!

...For a year in which our blessings were beyond comprehension. One year ago I had no babies, or any hope of having any any time soon (or so I thought). Now I have two. In the five-and-half years I suffered with infertility I never dreamed big enough to imagine a scenario like this. His ways are always so much better than our own.

...And for God, who makes all things possible.