Apparently it's obvious that I'm infertile

So I have another little infertility-related interaction I had at the very beginning of my vacation. We were still in Richmond at this point and my sister and I were getting pedicures next to each other when the woman massaging my sister's legs asks me if I'm married. I say yes, and then she looks right at me and says, "You have no babies, I can tell." What?? Does it say so on my forehead now? Is it that obvious? When I asked her how she knew, she said, "your shape." Then she went on to say that a few months after her baby was born her husband asked if she could return her post-baby body and get her old one back. She laughed that it was, at that point, too early for him to make that joke. I'd say!

I guess the silver lining in this is I'd probably weigh a lot more if I was popping out kids. But, let's be honest, that means nothing to me. Sure, I have my "shape" (although it's still not good enough to walk around in a bikini, but I'm more than happy to wear my little swimsuit skirt bottom.. thanks, Lan.d's End!), but I'd rather have babies. And the only reason I am thinner now is, ironically, because of infertility and the diet I was forced to start. Believe me, I remember that every time I take a bite of no-sugar-added ice cream.

And like I talked about in my last post, this woman didn't mean anything by it. She thought she was complementing me!

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Thanks for all your supportive comments on my last post. It really stopped bothering me after that first day. I think my progesterone started to rise and my mood started improving, along with my ability to handle things like that situation.

Today I'm going to have my peak +7 blood draw for progesterone and estradiol. Last night I think I had some spotting, but now I'm wondering if I dreamed it. I hate when that happens! I definitely charted it because it's there in black and white (and red sticker), but I had been sleeping on the couch before I went to bed, so I'm not sure how good my observation skills were and the memory of it is a bit foggy now. Although I think being out of it might cause me to miss seeing the spotting, not see it when it's not there, right?

So this is what I think happened - earlier in the night I saw some very, very, very slight discoloration, like off white or very light tan. To someone who isn't looking for it, it would have seemed like nothing, but for those of us who are forced to make an observation every time we're in the bathroom, we know even the slightest change. Then, a few hours later, before I went to bed, I saw some darker tan/pink spotting. Not like one spot or drop, but all-over discoloration like I usually see right before I start a new cycle (those of you who chart will get what I mean, while those of you who don't are probably just grossed out by now).

Sorry to focus so much on this, but I haven't spotted in the middle of my luteal phase for quite some time now. Actually, the last time it happened was on Christmas day and before that, September. I liked not feeling compelled to google "implantation bleeding" for a while! I always feel silly as I do it, and rightfully so, but some terrible force makes me type the words.

Of course, it has never been implantation spotting in the past and I am confident it isn't now. When it happened before, my doctor told me it was fine and normal, "my body getting back on track." But now I ovulate on day 14 or 15 and have 13 or 14 day luteal phases, so isn't my body back on track by now? Well, I haven't gotten pregnant, so clearly that answers my question.