Beach pics and cycle questions

We're back from the beach.

We had a great time, and the weather couldn't have been better.








It was a great weekend. I absolutely love staying in hotels, it's seriously one of my favorite things to do. It's right up there with eating out, which you have to do when you're on vacation, so I loved that too! We had some good food and it's back to dieting tomorrow. It was also really dead this weekend, being the off-season, so it was super quiet on the beach. It was really a perfect time to go.

That being said, I didn't feel entirely relaxed the whole weekend. Could that be due to the trigger shot?

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On the ride home today I found myself sad and inevitably asking the age-old question "Why would God allow us to be childless?" and even I was annoyed at the sound of it. I've asked it a thousand times. As soon as it comes out of my mouth it falls flat and I don't even pretend ask it with energy anymore. Maybe I don't even realize I'm asking it? Maybe it's a bad habit. Ryan doesn't really respond to the question and I don't blame him. There's nothing to say. There's no answer anyone on earth could give me that I'd be happy with. I'm just so tired of wondering.

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In cycle news, I have had a ton of peak-type mucus before and since ovulation. This poses two problems that I can think of: 1) it means I've now had 14 straight days of mucus, and 2) since I ovulated on cycle day 14 according to the ultrasound, then I've had four days of mucus after ovulation.

I know this isn't normal and I'm actually glad that getting an ultrasound revealed (assuming that this cycle isn't a fluke) that I probably ovulate earlier than I have thought in recent months and I'm just seeing what appears to be peak-type mucus for several days following ovulation (today it was cloudy, but up until today it was clear and great quality. If I were doing the essential sameness question, I probably would have charted yesterday as my peak day. As it is, I charted the trigger shot day as my peak, which my doctor instructed me to do).

Also keep in mind that I'm on ovulation drugs and still have too much mucus. I'm not taking anything to increase it either.

Perhaps this doesn't mean anything, but when everything is seemingly normal, you kind of have to look into anything that is out of the norm at all. Having a potential problem come to light does make me hopeful that perhaps it can be treated, although I'm afraid I'll never get an answer about this. Does anyone know what too much mucus (pre- and post-ovulation) means? Is it too much progesterone? Estrogen? I've read that both hormones create mucus, just different types. Is that even true?

I'm so frustrated when I try to goo.gle anything about hormones and ovulation. Is it just me, or is there nothing out there except fertility sites that give information even I already know? Please let me know if you have found any good sites that explain things a little more scientifically (not that I want anything over my head, but I just want a good explanation of why each stage is occurring).

I thank you in advance for any help you can give me on any of my many questions. I'm off to relax because I am wiped out. I've gotten a ton of sleep lately but I was still forced to nap today. Does the trigger shot make you loopy? I'll use that as an excuse regardless!